I have been in a very contemplative place the last couple of days. I have spent a significant amount of time mulling over the types of people that I tend to attract. Not just friends and lovers, but folks on the fringe as well. The conclusion that I have come to is that I am a magnet for the artistic, transient, whirlwind types who have a penchant for boozing/drugging. What I find most intriguing about that is I only posess trace amounts of those qualities. Yet, I am almost sought out by these types who often end up disappointing and hurting me. Not because it is intentional, but rather, it is the essence of their very nature. Irony personified. I do feel it necessary to make a disclaimer, that by no means is this the case for my dear ones. I am referring more to those who sit just outside or far away from that circle.
So, armed with this knowledge, how does one go about sheparding in a flock who do not seek to destroy my temple? I can only think that this is a two way street. Then the question becomes: what must I do to change my attraction to the self destructive?
I'm working on it.
<3
Adrienne
