I avoided going out for lunch today for 2 reasons. 1.) I am flat broke 2.) The NE is in the midst of a heat wave that shames Florida. I don't know if it is technically worse than ol' Fla, but NYers don't know how to do summer. Central AC and even wall units are a true novelty and most people up here think that it's fine to just 'tough it out'. That's not only really stupid, but really dangerous. The city has opened 500 cooling centers in the 5 boroughs so folks without AC can sit in a bearable room. Floridians appreciate and exploit air conditioning to its full potential and refuse to suffer unnecessarily. I come from a state that knows how to remain cool and collected in the face of unnatural heat. Go Florida!
I am a bit melancholy today, but nothing that is keeping me in the dumps. It feels like a lingering ghost that is gently whirling in the back of my mind. My dreams last night were dichotomous. They were filled with rejection and possibility. It was a jumble of emotions, but possibility and hope triumphed as I woke up feeling pretty ok. My guru and I joked yesterday that I hate the fact that she was right about the man. She told me that she hears that all the time and it's just part of her job. I am excited to see her tomorrow and she told me that she would explain things a bit more as to why the relationship ended before it got started. I have a pretty good idea, but it will be interesting to hear her insight. I am still feeling indignant, but that's just my ego talking and you know what? I'm glad I have a little ego again! I kind of missed feeling like I am worth something, dammit.
Sharon Jones and Rilo Kiley have been helping me immensely. To quote the brilliant Ms. Jones, "I ain't nobody's baby. I ain't nobody's fool."
Side note: looking at videos of kittens and icanhascheezburger.com have been improving my week significantly as well. I mean, how can you look at a kitten and be upset? Rowr!
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Adrienne
