Morning Tuesday! I am in a strange spot today (I feel like I say that quite a bit). But, today it is especially true as I am battling my way through some heartache and confusion sprinkled with optimism and self worth. I am indignant and disappointed in a man that I had fallen very hard for. I suppose that's just the risk one must take when forging a path for someone else in your life. He did not want to forge that path as it turns out and instead of letting me know directly, he just disappeared. Well, that's as clear a signal as any. The old me would have obsessed over why, how, what I did wrong and how to get back to the place we were before. Not this time. I don't even have the desire to know why he did what he did. He just did and that's that. Done. I have come too far and worked too hard for a man I knew briefly to define my self worth. While I'm sad and hurt, I know those feelings will pass and I must continue to believe that a healthy relationship is out there for me. I think this was a little pinch from the universe to let me know that I can fall for someone again and I am capable of being vulnerable. While it wasn't the desired outcome, I am really proud of myself for taking a huge risk and leaving caution at the door. Confession: I waffled and got WAY too into my head, fretted and was sad for about half the day on Saturday while I panicked that this would be taken away. I recovered my sanity by the evening and enjoyed the hell out my time with loved ones. The fact that I could recover myself much faster than before is a sign that I am continuing to progress down my path. Thanks for the kick in the pants, Universe. I really needed it. And I keep thinking that I may have dodged a bullet on this one anyway.
<3
Adrienne
